Days & Nights of Stutterin’ Stan

I can’t wait for the new Ugly Duckling album. January 12th, my friends.

This track is such a feel-good track. And I’ll use it to explain what I’ve experienced lately.

I WON’T LET IT DIE.

Hmmm.

What WON’T I LET DIE you ask?

Firstly, I won’t let this blog go to waste. I’ve experienced so much the past few months, and yet have been super lazy to even jot them down. Initially, I wrote on here for the sake of just doing it. Rarely would I write anything of worth, to me that is. But now is the time.

Secondly, I won’t let my happiness die. I won’t let the recent setbacks, the recent trials to allow me to fall to the emo-ness again. I’ve been so happy since last month, and the emo-ness has slowly subsided. To be closer to so much people, to know that people care for me so much.  It’s a great feeling, especially in this season of giving.  I feel people have given me so much by just being there for me, talking to me, hanging out, and just caring. It all comes to down to my last point.

Lastly, I won’t let my love for the God that made me die. All the things He has allowed to happen these past months, it’s taught me a lot. Lord, you’ve shown me how strong I really am. You’ve shown me how much I sell myself short, with beatmaking, going to school, friendships, work, etc. I love you. And I won’t let that fire go out. For a bit, it was almost on life support. My candle was on it’s last stage and all that it would take was someone, anyone, to just breathe on it  to put the fire out. But it’s back to where it was, if not stronger than ever before. I won’t let it die.

You got this. And I submit to your power.

I’m finding balance. And it’s awesome. Starting school next month again. LCC, full-time. Trying to get a AAT degree. Associate of Arts in Teaching SONNN! So please pray for me in that. I need it. Anyways, I’m out for now.

Jazzminds tonight with a lot of GBCers and friends. Tell ya how that goes. Blessings friends.

- STAN